Why do I keep fucking up like this? I dont even know what happened yesterday I just couldnt stop eating and now I have gained like 5 lbs!! Some of it I can get rid of with Lax but I just feel like im taking massive steps backwards. I was doing so well. Losing weight, exercising, feeling happy. Now im fat again and I feel like I have to go through it all again just to get back to where I was. I'm going to get a quick bath, do my housework then workout for a couple of hours. My friend gets here at about 5 so I have 4 1/2 hours to work out as much as possible.
We are both water fasting so hopefully she will keep me strong. If I water fast today and tomorrow, combined with 2-3 hours of exercise today and 3 hours tomorrow then I should get back to where I was. My goal was to weigh 140 lbs by the end of the week. Now I have 8 fucking lbs to shift to meet that.
Plan: intake 0 cals, burn 2500 cals, water 3-4 ltrs.
I will not be beaten. I will not binge!
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- cyanide_and_candy
- East Yorkshire, United Kingdom
- This is the diary of a girl caught between two parts of the same self. I'm stuck between happiness and depression, starving and binging. Jessica is the girl that strives for the perfection, The girl who WILL be 113 lbs, happy and adored. Stacey is the girl who destroys Jessica's dream, forcing food down her throat, ruining everything that was ever fought for. This blog is my way of becoming one person, of being Jessica and no one else.
It's okay hun, don't stress.
ReplyDeleteBinge weight is almost NEVER permanent and usually goes down within a few days.
Just try not to weigh yourself the next few days and youll be back down before you know it.
You can do this! Stay strong hun, I can't wait to see how much you lose with this fast.
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3
dont worry about one slip up. i know its hard when you feel like youve been doing great and then you take a step back but dont worry, weve all been there before and trust me, its not all lost. i know you'll be back to your goal weight in no time. stay strong
ReplyDeletemeg
don't worry, you'll get over it and through it all.
ReplyDeleteI start writing a blog about my life with my eating
ReplyDeletedisorder and my addiction to fashion. I really need readers,
because in my real life I had no listeners. Alone, yes I was
always alone with my thoughts, in those days I didn't care about it.
Untill I discovered the blogs and learnt how good it can feel to have
readers. Readers, which share the same intress and have the same
feelings after a shitty snack attack.
Plz, visit me:
beautiful-lunacy.blogspot.com
damn, i know how that feels. i've been bulemic for almost three years now... i wanted to go down to 100 lbs, but there were complications... now, i'm trying to get down again, but it's so hard
ReplyDeletefeel free to chat, if you'd like
XOXO
Hi, I'm Eli. Just found your blog and am really looking forward to reading the rest of your entries!
ReplyDeleteSorry about the binge-- I hate that feeling. Your goal sounds great. If I were you, I'd be worried that exercising that much would leave me vulnerable to a relapse binge :)
Good luck!
-Eli
hello...
ReplyDeletehang on...there will be sunny days for us, when we will be able to wear the skimpiest bikini and look good and not feel ashamed...we will reach that day.
It is a promise to myself and to all the other ED girls who exist in the whole world.
Take care of you:*
"PerfectingMyEmptiness"
Hello,
ReplyDeleteReally enjoyed reading your blog - although that sounds like the wrong emotion... I mean I was able to empathise and appreciated reading things that go through my head being articulated! Thank you.
I need laxatives! What over the counter are best to buy - can anyone tell me?
Sorry if thats an inappropriate qu.
Thank you for all you write. Stay strong! You're incredible and can achieve all you want too - Stay calm and carry on!
Love Georgie